If you were going to name your two least favorite, most likely to be disastrous, days of the year, what would they be?
Guess what mine are.
The first day of school? No.
Black Friday? Nope.
9-11? No again.
Pearl Harbor Day? Keep guessing.
Bear with my honesty, please. Sadly, for many years running, the two worst days on my annual calendar might shock you.
My two least favorite days are …. Drum roll, please… My birthday and Mother’s Day.
I can hear you now. “What???” “That’s gotta be some kind of typo.” “That girl is crazy.”
I have a feeling, though, that I’m not alone in this. I have a feeling that I’m not the only selfish, discontent, hard to please, woman out there.
And before you all join in feeling sorry for me, imagining that my family forgets my birthday or skips the handmade Mother’s Day cards, STOP for you’d all be dreadfully wrong. It’s not anything like that.
Actually, my family tries to do things to please me – breakfast in bed, gifts, cards, dinner out, but you know what? It’s just never enough. I am so deeply entrenched in thinking that every moment of my “special day” should be all about me, that I am destined for disillusionment. I’m certain to be met at some point in the day with a dirty dish, a crying child, or a gift that won’t zip up. The breakfast isn’t cleaned up after, the cards and gifts aren’t quite right, the restaurant isn’t my top choice. Do you feel me, sisters??? The day is never perfect enough and I’m left disappointed rather than delighted.
Now I have a feeling that you are wondering, why I’m telling you this? Why am I sharing this in such a public forum? And why on earth am I telling you this now?
Well, you see, tomorrow marks my 41st birthday and I am determined that my day is going to be different.
Not different because I’ll be swarmed with comments from hundreds of adoring blog followers, but different because I’m determined to wake up with an attitude of gratitude. Different because I’m going to put on joy like a coat. Different because God has put a new song in my heart and I am not the same woman that I used to be, so I don’t have to live like I used to. Different because I don’t have to let my past dictate the future.
Today, I am committing myself to be thankful even for dirty dishes and crying children and pants that are two sizes too small.
Today I’m choosing to be thankful for a family who loves me and a God who made me in His image and who has good plans for me.
Lord, teach me to be content. Teach me to be thankful. Teach me to love others as they show their love for me.
Thank You, Jesus, for making me right where I am and thank You for always growing me to be more like You.