Dear Younger Kim, (Intro & Part 1)

picsart_1477060816375I have recently begun a friendship with a younger mom on Facebook.  She is just beginning the homeschooling journey and is eager to learn all she can from any of us more experienced moms.  Bless her for that.  Two days ago, she messaged me this question:

So if you met yourself when your kids were as young as mine (4 and 1), what would you tell her?

Wow!  What a question!  What do I wish that I’d heard (heard = heard & listened to, believed, obeyed) from a more experienced mom 15 years ago?  What would I like to go back in time and tell myself?  Wow!  I can’t get the question off my mind, and thus begins this series that I pray will be a blessing to my dear, humble friend.

First off, I must confess that some of these statements will be things that I believe I have done well.  But others, probably most of them, I fear I have not.  I include both for the benefit of my younger self, that I may learn both from my successes and my failures.  And I share this counsel, both to my younger self, and the younger moms out there, as well as to my now older self.

In Titus 2:4-5, older women are instructed to teach what is good and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind and submissive to their own husbands, with the ultimate goal that God’s word would not be reviled (or in other translations: blasphemed, slandered, or dishonored).  Whether I’m an older woman yet or not, my goal in training the younger women to live an honorable life before God and man, is that God would be honored rather than dishonored.  That, indeed, is my desire as I write these for Ashley, myself and anyone else who might stumble upon them.  May God, my Father, Jesus Christ, my Savior, and the Holy Spirit, my Counselor, be glorified in all I say and do.

So, here we go.  My first nugget of wisdom is this:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

In the original Hebrew of Proverbs 3:6, that word translated “acknowledge” is yada, to know.  According to dictionary.com, “acknowledge” means (1) to admit to be real or true; recognize the existence, truth, or fact of: (2) to show or express recognition or realization of: (3) to recognize the authority, validity, or claims of.

As I meditate on this most important verse, I say, Kim (that’s me), trust in the Lord.  Trust Him.  Believe in Him.  Don’t trust your emotions, your human understandings of this.  Know the Lord.  Seek Him.  Moment by moment and step by step and day by day, seek Him first, and He will make your way straight and right.  He will direct your steps as you know and trust Him as Lord with your whole heart.

It is good to seek counsel from other people.  Keep listening to those talks and reading those books, but your trust has to be in God alone.  He alone is God.  He is the creator of all things and He is the author of all wisdom.  Beware of thinking that if you follow somebody’s “Ten Steps to a Perfect Child who Loves God,” that you’re guaranteed something.  This is a lie.  It is as you TRUST the Lord, Kim, as you follow Him fully, that your path will be made straight.

This word “straight,” in the Hebrew is yashar which according to Blue Letter Bible means to be right, straight, level, upright, just, lawful, smooth.  This is not the same as painless, carefree or easy.  Beware.  God is interested in refining you and your children into His vessels, directing you as you live out the purposes for which He has created you, whatever it takes.  Trust Him, when your path is hard, and trust Him when your path is easy.  Trust Him with all your heart.

Meditate on that today.

TWIG

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So many inconveniences

These inconveniences in life really are your lifeDear friends,

This is another scribbled note I found the other day.  In the midst of trying to manage my time well, I find that my children and my husband and my household responsibilities can seem real inconveniences in my pursuit of my “To Do” list.  And, for those of you who know me, I REALLY depend on my “To Do” list.  In fact, I keep it on my Google Calendar so I can daily be updating it.

But, friends, what if these inconveniences in my life, really are my life?

What if my “To Do” list was to love my husband and my children and to be a worker at home? (Titus 2:3-5)

What about the woman who had been bleeding for 12 years, who was healed by Jesus as she touched His garment while He was on His way to heal Jesus’ daughter?  (Mark 5 & Luke 8)

Or Zacchaeus who met Jesus while He was passing through Jericho? (Luke 19)

Were these people inconveniences to Jesus, or were they an important part of Jesus’ work here on earth?

I pray that I would make the most of every moment that I have here on earth, to love my children and my husband, to love my neighbor, to seek the Lord first, to love Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.

In His Strength,

TWIG

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Pray MORE. Complain LESS.

Pray MORE.  Complain LESS.more and less

No.  Scratch that.

Pray MORE.  Complain LESS.

Pray always.

Complain never.

Dear Father, Please help me to give thanks in all circumstances, trusting in Your will.  Prompt me by Your loving Spirit to pray without ceasing.  Teach me Your ways, show me Your paths.  Increase my faith.  Grant me the strength to keep a tight watch over my mouth.  Amen.

 

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A Child of Promise 2016

Budded on Earth to Bloom in Heaven18 years ago, I found out that my unborn son, Tommy, had passed away following an in-utero procedure to correct a life-threatening condition called Posterior Urethral Valves. Labor was begun and he was delivered in the wee hours of the morning on September 15, 1998.

This afternoon, in my garage, I noticed a butterfly sitting on the window of the garage door.  Carefully I walked over toward it to take a picture.  Still more carefully I reached my finger out to see if it would come to me.  It did.  And five minutes later, it perched on my 9 year old son’s finger as well.

When I was pregnant with Tommy and after he was born, I would go to the Butterfly House in Chesterfield, Missouri to have some time of peace and reflection.

The phrase on Tommy’s memorial stone is “Budded on Earth to Bloom in Heaven.”

Two years ago, in his honor, I successfully published my first book, titled A Child of Promise. A Child of Promise is both a journal and a study of pertinent scriptures for expectant parents who have learned their unborn child has a poor or fatal prognosis.

And the picture I chose for the cover of the book is a butterfly resting on a rosebud.

acopbookcoverGod knows me.  He knows my name.  He knows my every anxious thought.  He created me on purpose and He created my son on purpose.  I am thankful to have a loving Father who speaks in the still small voice of a butterfly on a hurting mama’s finger in her garage.

I would appreciate you sharing the information and praying for the word to get out about this resource. Carrying a baby when you know something is wrong is a very lonely journey.

Click here to see the book on Amazon.

Or you can visit the website for our A Child of Promise ministry here.

As Sure As the Dawn

Hosea 6

“Come, let us return to the LORD; for he has torn us, that he may heal us; he has struck us down, and he will bind us up. A

fter two days he will revive us; on the third day he will raise us up, that we may live before him.

Let us know; let us press on to know the LORD;

His going out is sure as the dawn; he will come to us as the showers, as the spring rains that water the earth.”

Hosea 6:1-3

Today marks the one-month anniversary of Noelle’s surgery and all I can say is Noelle is doing AMAZING!  After reading so many tragic stories of Nuss procedures gone wrong and severe, severe pain, I am so happy to report that Noelle has truly been a “textbook case” as a friend wished for us.

Noelle is taking no pain meds at all. The doctors still have her on limited activities such as sleeping on her back, no lifting, no twisting, etc., but she feels GREAT.

She’s breathing great. In the hospital she could barely get the spirometer to 500 and now she’s getting it to 1500! Yay! I think that’s actually about normal.

Our biggest struggle now is slowing her down!

She does still need help to get out of bed in the morning. Oh, and she does still have the head of her bed elevated. My husband made a wooden wedge that elevates the mattress. It goes under the mattress on top of the springs.  This helps her sleep on her back and I think makes breathing a little easier.

She does have a little rash on her chest but not too bad. Did I mention she got the titanium bar because she has a cobalt allergy? I’m praying the rash goes away soon and that there are no major allergic reactions to having a metal bar in for 3 years.

In fact, Noelle went on a youth retreat last weekend — without me! Just before the retreat, my oldest daughter, who is one of the youth leaders, came to our 3-week post-op check up and talked with the Nurse-Practioner, Beth, which helped me.  She got to ask lots of questions and get clarification on what she can and cannot do.  Both sisters did terrific.  Thank You, Jesus!

Noelle’s scars are all healed up. Her chest looks good- if anything it looks a little too far out. I’m going to ask the surgeon about that at our next check up which is in 2 more weeks.

We started back to schoolwork on Wednesday and that’s going well.

I confess, though, that I keep waiting for the “other shoe to drop.”  My life experience has been littered with tragic situations and I am having a very hard time receiving this precious gift of good health and healing.  And why is that?  Do I not believe that I have a good Father who loves to give good gifts to His children?

So, today, I pray that I will press in to the Lord in faith, living before Him and trusting that He is as sure as the dawn.

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Fear Not.

Fear Not Isaiah 41“Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”  Isaiah 41:10

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Forget Not All His Benefits

“Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.”“Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name!  Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”  Psalm 103:1-5

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My God, In Whom I Trust.

psalm 91 1-2 dwells in the shelter of the most high“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Psalm 91:1-2

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A week of updates on Titanium Girl

July 9, 7 am update – Please pray for Noelle. She has developed diarrhea. To complicate that, twice she has had it happen in the bed, which requires getting her out of bed, into the bathroom and everything cleaned up. Also, she had a temp of 100.9 once during the night, around 1am, but it’s back to normal now. The doctors will be here in a minute on their rounds, so pray for that too. Thankful for a new morning, filled with new mercies.

July 9, 9 am update – Guess who just ate their breakfast … and sat in a chair for 40 minutes … and walked the loop around the hall … and did her Spirometer 3 times! Up for 1 hour! Praise God! And the fever hasn’t returned.  Thank you for praying!

July 9, 1pm update – Doing better all the time! She’s been out of bed for another hour. Walked the hall and eating a good lunch. Yay! Off all morphine and awake more. No more temp! Praise Jesus!

Doing better all the time! She’s been out of bed for another hour. Walked the hall and eating a good lunch. Yay! Off all morphine and awake more. No more temp! Praise Jesus!

July 9 – 8pm update – What a difference a day makes! Lots of eating and walking with manageable pain levels. Please pray for the IV to be able to stay in until tomorrow … when Noelle might be DISCHARGED! Thank you for praying!

July 10 – 10am updateThe xray looks good. The doctor has issued discharge orders! She’ll be going home soon-ish.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Praise Him all creatures here below.  (By the way, the IV has made it!) Pray for pain management and healing as we begin life at home!

July 10 -5pm update – Thank You, Jesus, our great physician, for the miraculous recovery Noelle has made! We are home! Please continue to pray for her full healing as there’s still a long road ahead. Thank you all for praying.

Thank you’s to these special people who ministered to us so much. Dr. Trey Eubanks, nurses Sam, Haylea, Evelyn and Mary and our friendly “tour guide” ReTonya. Not pictured: Nurse-practitioner Beth and our first nurse, Kristen, plus countless others who served us. Thank you for an incredible experience at Lebonheur Hospital. Truly, thank you!

Noelle was discharged just hours before a big Black Lives Matter rally in downtown Memphis.  Our hearts grieve for our broken city and we pray for reconciliation and unity within the body of Christ here.

July 11 – 1pm update – We made it through the night. Please keep praying for us. Last night while getting ready for bed, Noelle had her worst pain yet. It was so hard to see her crying in pain. Still a long road ahead. We’re trying to balance better today and stay on top of the pain.

July 13 – 1pm update – I’d say she’s making an incredible recovery! Thank you all for praying. Noelle has been coloring lots of gorgeous pictures (thank you to those who gave her coloring supplies). Also, she’s gotten up and about to get the mail and visit the chickens and even make homemade lemonade! We are cutting back on the Percocet, but continuing the other pain meds as scheduled. Praise God, the giver of every good gift.

July 16 – 10pm update – Noelle is doing AMAZING.  It is incredible that 9 days ago she had a titanium bar placed in her chest.  Twice a day, she is taking Naproxen, a muscle relaxer and a “nerve pain” medicine, but her pain level is minimal.  Our struggle is keeping her activity level down and not to watch too much TV.  Today she walked a couple blocks in our neighborhood and ran a couple errands with me.  We give thanks to God for granting her such a miraculous recovering, and give thanks to our many friends and family who have blessed us by their gifts and prayers.

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