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Advent Day 1 – God Always Has a Plan (Genesis 1; Luke 1)

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Read through the Bible in 2 years: Luke 1

The kids and I read our daily Advent devotional in “From Creation to Christ” along with our Luke 1 Bible passage. The Kindle ebook version is FREE now through Monday, December 4 at 11:59pm Pacific Standard Time. Merry Christmas! Hurry and get your copy today and share it with your friends!

What jumped out at me this time was that God had a plan for everything He made in the six days of creation, and God had a plan in the birth of John and of Jesus. Though both of these first born sons were miraculous gifts from God, God sent John to be born to an elderly priest and his barren wife, while God sent Jesus to be born of a young woman not yet married. John was conceived by an earthly father, while Jesus was God’s own begotten Son, born of the Holy Spirit Himself.

As an atheist I struggled to find purpose in my life. I was taught again and again that everything I saw, including myself, had evolved through a series of random events over billions of years. What a lie! And a lie with major consequences.

God wanted John to be named John (G2491 Ἰωάννης iōannēs) from the Hebrew name (H3110 יוֹחָנָן yôḥānān) which means “Jehovah is a gracious giver” or “Jehovah has graced,” and God wanted His Holy Son to be called Jesus (G2424 Ἰησοῦς iēsous) from the Hebrew name (H3091 יְהוֹשׁוּעַ yᵊhôšûaʿ) which means “Jehovah is salvation.”

God has purpose for every thing He makes. He designed the water, air, earth, stars, plants and animals to work together, and He designed John and Jesus, Zechariah, Elizabeth, Mary, and Joseph, to work together, too. What a privilege it is to be part of God’s kingdom and part of God’s family!

Heavenly Father, Thank You for making me. Thank You for making the trees that stretch high up into the sky, towering over us, and thank You for making ants that crawl along the ground. I pray that You will encourage me to walk by faith and to accomplish the good works that You have created in advance for me to do. I am Your poema, Your workmanship. Thank You, Father, for creating each of my children for a unique purpose. Guide them by Your Word and Your Holy Spirit. In the Name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Lord, I pray. Amen.

What does Redeemed Mean? Thoughts from the Book of Ruth

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: Ruth 3-4

In April 1994, I was having another discussion about religion with a young man I was interested in. For the dozenth time I was arguing with him about my inability to believe in a God that I couldn’t see with my eyes or touch with my hands. Suddenly, in a brief moment of humility, I asked a simple question, “What do you mean when you say, ‘saved’?” To me, “save” was a word associated with money and stray puppies, not college valedictorians. And for the first time I heard clearly explained the good news of salvation through faith in Jesus Christ.

Reading through the book of Ruth, I noticed the words redeem and redeemer used over and over again, but do we as 21st-century adults understand what ‘redeemed’ means?

Do we see our own abject lostness and our need for a counselor and guide to show us where to go and lead us by the hand to get there?

Or do we think we’ve already arrived, already know all the answers, and we don’t need anything beyond what hard work, Google, and the government can provide.

Do we see ourselves as hopeless, helpless beggars all searching for a morsel of bread?

Or do we see ourselves as wealthy, capable, able-bodied people in need of no one and no thing to help us?

Do we see our sinful nature and recognize our need for forgiveness and rebirth?

Or do we think we’re really pretty good, decent people who’ve never killed anybody or done anything all that bad, especially compared to all the good things we’ve done?

Naomi, a Jew, and Ruth, a Moabite, both needed to be redeemed and so do you and I. Naomi and Ruth’s earthly lives were redeemed by their kinsman-redeemer, Boaz, but their eternal souls were redeemed by looking forward to that sinless Redeemer, Jesus Christ, who paid the price for their sins with His own sins blood, something much more precious than all the gold and silver all the world over.

Have you been redeemed? Have you been washed in the blood of that Lamb? Were your sins been fully paid for when Jesus, that spotless Lamb, was nailed to the cross 2,000 years ago?

Read more about redemption at Blue Letter Bible.

Are you Washed in the Blood of the Lamb?
Redeemed by the Blood of the Lamb
I Know that My Redeemer Lives

Foreigners Made Citizens of Heaven – From Abram to Ruth to Me

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Read through the Bible in 2 years: Ruth 2

Ruth, a widowed Moabite woman, found safety in the providence of God and in the fields of Boaz, her Israelite kinsmen redeemer.

Have you ever considered the fact that God called Abram, a man living in Ur of the Chaldeans, to come to Canaan and be the great father of the Israelite nation? God could’ve chosen someone already living in the Promised Land, but He didn’t. God called Abram to leave his people and his land and to go to a land that he would show him, and he did.

God chose a foreign-born woman, Ruth, to be the great grandmother of King David, the forefather of Jesus Christ Himself. God could’ve chosen Naomi herself, a Jew, but He didn’t. God called Ruth to leave her people and her land and to follow her mother-in-law back to her land, and she did.

And now, three thousand years later, God chose me, a young woman running from God, blaspheming His name, scoffing at His followers, to carry His Word across the world wide web to foreign nations around the world. He could’ve chosen my sister-in-law who grew up in church, but He didn’t. God called me to wake up before dawn, to turn on my computer and teach, morning by morning, and I’m trying. 😁

Heavenly Father, have Your way with me. Help me to trust You and walk humbly with You, my God. You are the God of Redemption and Power, the God of Holiness and Second Chances. You are the Tapestry-Weaving God of Life and Purpose. We worship You, Lord, and thank You for Your mercy. Help us to reach out to the foreigner dwelling among us for Your glory, never forgetting that You desire the worship of people all over the globe. We want to be faithful to make disciples of all nations. In the Name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen.

Are you looking for a family friendly advent devotional? Two years ago I got in print what had been in my heart, head, and mouth for the last decade with my own kids. I hope it blesses you. It’s available in paperback or ebook versions. Download a PDF of all 25 ornaments free here.

“From Creation to Christ: A Family Advent Devotional Tracing the Story of the Savior Through Scripture, Stories, Songs, and Pictures”
by Kim Endraske

Day 11 of the Devotional is about Ruth and Boaz. Enjoy!

Boasting only in the Lord: My One80 Experience

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: 2 Corinthians 10-11

My life has gone from fearful to faithful and from boasting in myself to boasting in the Lord. As a result to being born again, I finally realize, like Paul in 2 Corinthians, that all my pride in my own accomplishments is for nothing.

Let the one who boasts,
boast in the Lord.

2 Corinthians 10:17 ESV

In my own flesh, I am selfish and proud. Left to myself, I want for my own praise and glory. It is only in Christ that I genuinely desire for the good of another.

If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness.

2 Corinthians 11:30 ESV

It is with great fear and trepidation that I share about my own successes because I don’t want people to look at my life and see ME. I want you to look at my life and see what CHRIST has done. All glory and honor belongs to Him. It is He who began a good work in me, and it is He who will be faithful to complete it.

Several months ago I was honored to be interviewed for the One80 podcast. One80 features all different types of people who have experienced a 180° change in their life as a result of meeting Jesus Christ. And by God’s grace, they stumbled upon my book and asked me to share my testimony with their listeners. I hope you will take a listen and subscribe to hear more testimonies of God’s power and mercy. You can find them on Spotify, on their website, or on whatever podcast player you prefer.

Heavenly Father, You are the All Worthy God, the Creator and Sustainer of life, the Giver of every good gift. Help us all to make our boast in You and You alone. Keep us from boasting in our own strength and remind us that our testimony and our talents belong to You. We pray that You will draw many into Your kingdom through Your Word and Your children. In the Name of Jesus Christ who died that we might have life. Amen.

I will bless the LORD at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the LORD; let the humble hear and be glad. Oh, magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together!

Psalm 34:1-3 ESV

Thus says the LORD: “Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches, but let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth. For in these things I delight, declares the LORD.”

Jeremiah 9:23-24 ESV

I’m a New Creation in Christ: My Interview with Kelly Hall on her Unshakable Hope Podcast

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: 2 Corinthians 5

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21 ESV

Kelly Hall and I first met almost thirty years ago when I was a first year teacher at Central Institute for the Deaf in St. Louis, Missouri. Little did I know then how God would mightily use Kelly and her courageous faith in my life. Kelly and I had lost touch after exchanging annual Christmas letters for many years only to be reconnected about five years ago when I discovered that my faithful Memphis area prayer partner, Beth, also knew Kelly from their husbands’ mutual service in the air force in Texas! Isn’t God amazing?!? He is the great tapestry weaver.

I hope you’ll take a half hour of your time to tune in to my interview on Kelly Hall’s Unshakable Hope podcast and consider subscribing to be alerted as she releases new ones.

https://kellyhall.org/podcast/episode-19-from-out-spoken-atheist-to-devoted-follower-of-jesus-kim-endraske/

Share Jesus Without Fear

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: 2 Corinthians 4

For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake.

2 Corinthians 4:5 ESV

Have you ever heard of the book, “Share Jesus Without Fear” by William Fay? This book solidified my belief in asking questions and genuinely listening to the person’s responses as an effective method of sharing the gospel. The book also encourages you to share the gospel directly from the scriptures, by suggesting seven key passages for the person you’re sharing with to read themselves. In fact, I’ve written these passages down in the pocket New Testament Bible that I carry with me in my purse. My only complaint about the book is the title. I’m STILL afraid to share — but I pray every day that the Lord will give me strength to overcome that fear.

I want to always be prepared to give away this pocket Bible, so I also wrote several key passages in the cover that are excellent for non-Christians or new Christians to study. I actually keep a second pocket Bible ready at home with these verses written in it, too, so when I give this one away, I’m already prepared to pop another one into my purse. I learned these passages from No Place Left ministries whose website has lots of great resources for evangelism and discipleship.

But, back to ‘Share Jesus Without Fear,” this book includes many excellent questions to ask to open the door for a spiritual conversation. Here are some questions that I hope might help you. I think these questions are appropriate to ask just about anyone given the right situation, whether a close friend or a stranger on an airplane.

  • Has anyone ever explained the basic beliefs of Christianity to you? Would you like me to share my thoughts with you?
  • Do you have any kind of spiritual beliefs?
  • Who is Jesus to you? Can I share with you who Jesus is to me?
  • Do you think there is a heaven or hell? How did you come to those beliefs?
  • If you died tonight, where would you go? If heaven, why?
  • May I share seven scriptures with you that changed my life?

Don’t be afraid to ask someone to meet you for coffee or a meal, asking them in advance if they’d like to meet up with you to talk about spiritual things. You might be surprised how many people would be willing to meet with you if you asked them! You’ll never know if you don’t ask.

Heavenly Father, I’m asking You to open doors for me to have a spiritual conversation with someone this week. I want to be a faithful disciple of Jesus Christ. I want to love my neighbor as myself. Jesus came to seek and save the lost, and I want to do that, too. Please give me courage and wisdom to be a witness and ambassador for the kingdom of heaven. In the Name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen.

Of First Importance: Share the Gospel

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: 1 Corinthians 15

Now I would remind you, brothers, of the gospel I preached to you, which you received, in which you stand, and by which you are being saved, if you hold fast to the word I preached to you—unless you believed in vain. For I delivered to you as of first importance what I also received: that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures…

1 Corinthians 15:1-4 ESV

Dear friends, no one will be compelled to follow Christ by listening to you complain and criticize. Sharing haughty arguments and brilliant expositions on lofty theological ideas isn’t the way to bring lost sinners to the feet of Christ. It’s the gospel. It’s the good news of Jesus Christ, God’s only Son, who died for our sins and who was raised triumphant from the dead, that draws people to faith. Share the gospel.

Ask questions. Listen thoughtfully to the answers. Share transparently about the struggles and joys of your own life. And share the gospel.

Jesus is who draws and saves. And Jesus is the Savior – not you. Friends, please, share the gospel.

Heavenly Father, thank You for the best news I’ve ever heard, the good news that the lost can be found and the dead can be raised through faith in Your Son, Jesus Christ, fully God and fully man who died in my place. I pray that You will send me where You want me to speak. Open my mouth to speak what You want me to say, and open my eyes to see the doors that You open for me. You are the One who saves. Make me a faithful steward of the gospel of Jesus Christ and of my testimony. For the glory of Your Name. Amen.

The Importance of Sharing the Gospel

Are you Dead or Alive? Are you Perishing or Being Saved?

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: 1 Corinthians 1

And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind.

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.

Ephesians 2:1-7 ESV

Please take the time to read this incredible sermon by Charles Spurgeon titled, “Once Dead, Now Alive.”

Here’s a brief excerpt of it that I hope will cause you to want to read the whole thing.

To find out what spiritual death means, I shall ask you to remember that this dead body here is characterized by an absence of sense.

Be not afraid, it is your brother man; come close up to him, and speak. He does not hear you. Speak more loudly; he does not answer you, he gives no sign of recognition. Shout at the very top of your voice; stoop down, and speak into his ear. Alas! it is the clay-cold ear of death, upon which no effect whatever is produced.

I remember when I was spiritually just like that. I could not hear even the voice of Jesus, though it was very soft and tender. He said, “Come unto me,” but I did not respond to his call. There were others near me who did; but I was dead, and took no notice.

Then there came a louder sound, a voice of threatening, a message of condemnation. God spoke from the top of Sinai, and hurled at me the ten great thunderbolts of his law; yet still I did not hear. I had broken all those commands, and I must bear the penalty of disobedience; the law told me so, but I did not hear.

Friends led me, sometimes, dead as I was, where both the law and the gospel were fully preached; but I did not hear, I could not hear. Sounds went past the drum of my ear, and my body heard; but the ear of my heart was not reached, I could not hear, for I was dead.

Charles Spurgeon, ‘Once Dead, Now Alive,’ 1888

Oh, save us, Lord for our nation is perishing! Our people are dying for lack of knowledge and understanding. We have trusted in ourselves and turned our backs on You, preferring the fake wisdom of man over the true wisdom of God.

Forgive us, Lord. Have mercy on our souls. Draw us back to You by Your steadfast lovingkindness.

I once was lost but now I’m found. I once was dead but now I’m alive. Praise Your Name. You opened my eyes and gave my life. You brought me out of the darkness. You set my feet on the Solid Rock. You hid me under the shelter of Your Almighty Wings. Thank You, Father!

You loved us so much that You sent Your Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. Let us not waiver any longer. May we choose this day whom we will serve, and may it be You and You alone for You alone are worthy. You deserve all the praise and all the glory. In the matchless name of Jesus I pray. Amen

Stones of Remembrance and Your Children

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Read through the Bible in 2 Years: Joshua 4

I grew up listening to my mom’s stories, stories about her life growing up on a dairy farm, how she and my dad planned a quick wedding before he went off to college out-of-state, how I was finally born three weeks past my due date, and many more. I’ve heard the same stories again and again, but somehow I can’t seem to remember all the details. I need to be reminded of these true stories that are important to my family’s life.

The Israelites had been miraculously delivered out of slavery in Egypt. They had spent 40 years wandering in the desert while the Lord miraculously fed them daily with bread from heaven. And now they are going to miraculously cross the Jordan River into the Promised Land of Israel.

Their children will need to hear these stories told again and again. They will need to be reminded of how God provided and God delivered and God led His people, not just so they’d know their people’s history but so they’d know their God.

Our children need to know how God worked in our lives, so they will trust that He can work in their lives, too.

Remember, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” (Hebrews 13:8 ESV) Let’s tell our children some stories about how the Lord has worked in our lives, setting up some Stones of Remembrance for them to know and trust God. This is one of many reasons I wrote the story of my Jesus transformed my life from Evangelical Atheist to Evangelical Christian.

I’d love to hear your stories. Leave a comment here so others can be encouraged by how the Lord has worked in your life.

Heavenly Father, You are the eternal, unchanging God. You have always been perfect, and You always will be. But, Father, we need change. We need transformation. We need to be made new creations by the power of Your Spirit in us. And so do our children and our neighbors. Please work in us and through us, give us courage and wisdom to share the good news of the gospel of Jesus Christ with whoever You place in our path. Let us not forget the Stones of Remembrance that You have given to us. May we remember You, and how You have led us, delivered us, and provided for us. In the Name of Jesus Christ we pray. Amen.

All the Way My Savior Leads Me – Fanny Crosby

His Mercy is More

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Read through the Bible in 2 years: Joshua 2

Today’s passage reminded me how often the Bible just “tells the story like it is” without any commentary on the morality of a person’s decisions. Was Joshua wrong to send the two spies to Jericho? I’m not sure. Was Rahab wrong to lie about the Israelite spies she was hiding? I think so, but once again I’m not sure.

But I am sure that God works even through the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad decisions that we make. In fact, God chose Rahab who had been a prostitute (clearly not a good choice) to be the great, great grandmother of that man after God’s own heart, King David.

And did you know that Rahab is the mother of Boaz, the worthy man who acted as the Moabite Ruth’s kinsman-Redeemer? (Matthew 1:5) I think that Boaz was more accepting of Ruth’s Gentile background because of his mother’s, and that he would’ve better understood the transformative power of faith in God because of his own mother’s testimony.

Sister, have you made choices in your life that you wish today you could go back and erase? I have. And, yet, those very choices have made me the woman I am today. All I can say is, PRAISE GOD for where sin abounded, His grace abounded all the more.

The book of the genealogy of Jesus Christ, the son of David, the son of Abraham. Abraham was the father of Isaac, and Isaac the father of Jacob, and Jacob the father of Judah and his brothers, and Judah the father of Perez and Zerah by Tamar, and Perez the father of Hezron, and Hezron the father of Ram, and Ram the father of Amminadab, and Amminadab the father of Nahshon, and Nahshon the father of Salmon, and Salmon the father of Boaz by Rahab, and Boaz the father of Obed by Ruth, and Obed the father of Jesse, and Jesse the father of David the king….

Matthew 1:1-6 ESV

Heavenly Father, Your mercy is more. Your power is greater. Your love is better. You are perfect in all Your ways, using the tangled webs of our lives to weave a masterpiece of Your glory. You have cleansed me and washed me white as snow in the crimson blood of Christ my Savior. Now take my life as a living offering of gratitude for Your saving grace. In the Name of Jesus Christ, fully God and fully man, my sinless kinsmen-redeemer, I pray. Amen.

His Mercy is More – The Gettys

By faith Rahab the prostitute
did not perish
with those who were disobedient,
because she had given a friendly
welcome to the spies.

Hebrews 11:31 ESV
Jesus Paid it All