Read through the Bible in 2 years: Genesis 30:25-32:32
"And Jacob said, “O God of my father Abraham and God of my father Isaac, O LORD who said to me, ‘Return to your country and to your kindred, that I may do you good,’ I am not worthy of the least of all the deeds of steadfast love and all the faithfulness that you have shown to your servant, for with only my staff I crossed this Jordan, and now I have become two camps. Please deliver me from the hand of my brother, from the hand of Esau, for I fear him, that he may come and attack me, the mothers with the children. But you said, ‘I will surely do you good, and make your offspring as the sand of the sea, which cannot be numbered for multitude.’” Genesis 32:9-12 ESV
Like Jacob, I feel incredibly small and unworthy. I started my journey with the Lord as a 21-year-old nobody. God has given me so much – a husband who loves me, four beautiful children and a fantastic son-in-law and daughter-in-law, and amazing granddaughter and another grandchild on the way, not to mention a fantastic home and a fulfilling ministry and career.
But truly, the greatest things that God has given to me are His steadfast love and faithfulness which fill my life with hope and purpose. Because of the promise of God’s faithful love, I can ask Him for anything that I need and I don’t need to be afraid.
I love how Jacob makes his requests in the middle of reminding God of what He has promised him. God, You said to me that I should return to my country that You may do me good…. I’m so unworthy of all Your goodness. Now please save me and my children and their mothers…. Remember, God, You said You would surely do me good and make my offspring as numerous as the sand of the sea.
What a great model for us! Let’s pray!
Oh Father, Your Word is full of Your promises! You have blessed me beyond measure with the gift of Your steadfast love and faithfulness. You have blessed me with unimaginable blessings – both here and in eternity.
I am not worthy of the least of all the kindness You have lavished on me, Your grace and steadfast love and faithfulness. I am not worthy by my own merit. Yet, Lord, You have made me worthy by adopting me into Your family and giving me a new name, Your Name, the name that is above every name.
You, Lord are worthy. You are worthy of every song I could sing and every praise I could shout from the darkest cave to the highest heights.
Please deliver me from the schemes of the devil, extinguish the fiery darts that the deceiver has aimed at me. Protect me and my family. Guard us behind the immovable rock of Jesus Christ and hide us beneath the shelter of Your wings.
To the glory and praise of Jesus we pray, Amen.